I’m exhausted but I can’t sleep. I’m restless. I want to sell my house and move away with my husband to finish school. We don’t want Parkersburg anymore than it wants us.
"I’m gonna hope, and hope, and hope, until one day I do something; Maybe then, we’ll be able to find that place that we have both wanted for so long, maybe then, we’ll have each other. I’m not reaching for stars anymore, I’m reaching for you, and honestly, that’s far more beautiful than a night full of dancing flames."
anxiety is terrible, you could be having an attack and no one would even know because it’s an inward thing. it feels like you’re malfunctioning and you can’t process your own thoughts. you get a knot in your stomach and you can’t take a full breath but outwardly you can literally just sit there and look completely normal as long as no one tries to speak to you.
- me: i don't even care. i'm not going to talk about this anymore.
- me: and you know what else? [2000 word rant]